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Today I've been deeply moved and reminded that I will NEVER be twenty again and that time is about to move faster and less kindly than I expect.

I'm in the process of reading CANCER IS A Bitch by Gail Konop Baker. So far.. so good. Her writing has caught me off guard a few times. Occasionally she will talk as if she is speaking in her head and I feel left lingering and thinking, was she just speaking in her head?

CANCER IS A Bitch makes me feel good for not often taking experiences, precious rare moments and even not the so great moments for granted. It'll all be over one day.. let today be good.

May today be good.
May you let love in.
May I bless your heart,
where shall I begin?
I bless your body.
I bless your life.
I bless your family and any strife.
May moments be merry.
May moments be bright.
May you remember the possibilities are out of your sight.
Please open your eyes.
Please go for the gold.
Please do what your heart tells you.
May you never grow old.


"I smell fear in the parched space between our lips -- sour and brittle; laced with all the things we forgot to say, all the times we didn't love one another enough".

Dear Ryan,

I want to take a chance.
When I look at you my knees get weak.
When I'm in your arms I can hardly speak.
You 'ought to know you are the one love,
that I adore.
I hope you never tell me lies.
I'm captured by your charm.
I can't wait to put lipstick on your collar.
I can't help myself,
I want you and nobody else.
I want to tease you during the day and please you at night.
I'll be your thrill after dark.
Only thing is I come and I go.
Changing with every new day.
Lose your dreams and lose your mind.
pg 1

I want to sleep in real late with you one Sunday afternoon.
Instead I'm lost in a daydream.
I've been dreaming since I woke up today,
thinking about some boy.
I want to give you more, more, more.
I want to be your baby.
Whenever you feel alone all you've got to do is call me,
run to me and I'll be there.
I'll love and squeeze you.
Just tell me how you feel and I'll give my heart to you.
You could have me all through the night.
Maybe we could even dance under the moonlight.
Hug me tight.
Do you wanna? make love under an apple tree?
Do I catch your eye?
I'd let you love me if you promised you'd never stop.
pg 2

Say that you'll be true and I'll never be blue.
If you can't be around, telephone.
I'll pick up.
I'm not make believe and neither is my love for you.
My heart I can't control.
I'll tell you what others will never know.
Let's sit down and enjoy a bottle of wine sometime and eat grapes off the vine.
I pray for the day.
Don't hold her hand, be mine.
Can I convince you with a pretty please?
Just say you will.
Everyday you're gone you know my heart only burns...

Always,
Alexandra